Every member of my family cried yesterday!
Let me explain....
Handsome had a horrible day at work yesterday. I mean awful. One of his carriers returned from a weeklong vacation and called 30 minutes into the route and said he wasn't feeling well, his legs were numb, and he needed to go home. Josh went and picked him up (literally off someones porch) and took him home. On the way Josh asked if he needed an ambulance. The guy insisted his wife was a nurse and that she was waiting to take him to the hospital. Josh drove him home and went back to work. Around 3:15 the guy called and said they couldn't find anything wrong with him and he was feeling better so he would be back at work the following day. Great.
Around 6:30 Josh arrives home from work and within 3 minutes of walking in the door he got a text message that made him ill.
That guy DIED. Apparently he had a blood clot in his leg that went to his heart and he died. Josh was a wreck. I mean completely beside himself. He cried, multiple times. It was awful.
Then...
Maddie and Kate had been fighting ALL. DAY. LONG.
After 4 time outs and three "GO TO YOUR ROOMS" we decided to have a super early bedtime which resulted in more fits and time outs.
Having a 3 year old is EXHAUSTING. Having 2 is worse.
Then...
Josh was so upset he needed to get out of the house. He asked me to ask my Mom (at 10:00 at night) to please come up and sit with the girls while we took a drive.
OK
When we returned at 11:00 Jaycie was still awake.
Ya see... We've been having this problem with Jaycie ever since we tried moving her back to her own bed after Amy & Spencer left, that she can't do it. She can't sleep more than 20 minutes without waking up.
*Side note: Jaycie is the worst napper EVER, 40 minute naps are a HUGE Victory!
The night before last she woke up every hour. (Not kidding, I looked a wreck from lack of sleep) I decided then we needed to be strict about sleep training. For some reason Jaycie's cry affects me so much. I can't stand it. She cries, I cry, it's a cycle. So I knew this would be tough, but crazy mommy needed some sleep so she wouldn't become out of control mommy.
I nursed her, rocked her, laid her down. She cried. I sang. She cried. I sang and talked. She cried.
10 minutes go by and she's hysterical. Clawing at her crib trying to get to me.
It was torcher.
I pick her up, nurse her, rock her, pat her, bounce her.
She's asleep, I put her down.
She cries and I leave.
She cries, I cry. (Like fetal possition, curse this method, beat myself up about what a horrible mother I am.)
She cries, I cry.
8 minutes pass and she's quiet.
I listen and I hear her babbling. After 10 minutes she starts crying again.
5 minutes pass and she cries and I cry.
Then silence.
She fell asleep. I was awake most of the night watching her, listening to her breathe. When Handsome got up for work I asked him to grab her for me so I could snuggle her. She's never slept 6 hours straight before.
We snuggled and I slept and she slept.
When morning came I kept looking at her. Thinking to myself I had somehow destroyed this perfect relationship I had with my baby. Watching for the smile she gives only to me, I thought it would never come; but it did.
She forgave me, now I just have to forgive myself and do it all again tonight.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Monday, April 8, 2013
Family Update : April 2013
Josh is still filling in as supervisor at the Sugarhouse Post Office. His manager loves him and the post master loves him but the lazy carriers still don’t love him. He got an EEO (equal employment offence) filed on him from a lazy carrier but Josh and his manager ripped that apart right away seeing as Josh was on Vacation one of the days he’s claiming he was discriminated against. The ultimate goal is to get this guy canned so we will see how long it takes. Josh applied for a permanent position as supervisor and his manager says he’s getting it so we are also waiting on that. Josh is super motivated to get the yard done right now. He has started in the sprinklers and we are currently waiting for the weather to improve so we can have the concrete poured. Josh is turning 30 this month and I have every intention of throwing him a party against his wishes. He’s still serving in the scouting program but since he’s had to work so often lately he hasn’t been a huge help; however they knew that when they called him. Josh is quite the social butterfly in the ward and makes sure he talks to everyone who’s new.
Amber is currently spending most of my days raising children. I’m really enjoying my book club and I’m thinking about getting a gym pass so I can start to work off all this baby weight. For some reason I just can’t figure out how to diet and nurse a baby at the same time. Go figure. So now that Jaycie is nursing less I should be able to have a little more time for myself. I just finished reading the Book of Mormon again and I love how much I get out of it every time I read it. I teach the 4 year olds in primary and I love those little kids. I have a very well behaved class and love teaching them and helping them feel Heavenly Father’s love for them. General Conference just came and went and I was extremely uplifted and inspired. I really felt that the sacrifices I’m making in my life are what’s right for me now and I have a desire to be a better more patient mother and to make my marriage stronger. I'm looking forward to summer and hopefully some play dates and time outside with the girls. We're planning to get a zoo pass and one to the aquarium too, so it should be a fun summer.
Madisyn is becoming quite the sleeper. Lately she refuses to get out of bed until at least 9 a.m. which is rough considering we have been doing swimming lessons which start at 9:40. She’s a little timid in the water and doesn’t like to jump in or get her face wet so I’m sure that she’ll be on the first level of swimming lessons forever. She loved purple and has to wear a purple shirt everyday. She has the most beautiful long hair but wants a pony tail everyday because she has to wear “mommy’s big one” hair elastic. She’s really into eating goldfish and yogurt lately and she likes to carry Jaycie around even though she knows she’s not suppose to. She loves doing puzzles and coloring.
Katie is 3 going on 13. She’s been a struggle this month. She is constantly telling me that I’m not nice, that we aren’t friends anymore, that she’s going to Grandma Karen’s and then to Disneyland. She loves Cinderella but has been watching Brave and wearing Merida lately. She wants pancakes for breakfast every morning and thinks that Dr. Pepper is the only beverage out there (she hardly ever gets it; but that doesn’t keep her from asking). She’s getting really good at matching her clothes and making her bed. She recognizes the letters A,B,C,G,J,K, &M. She is excited for preschool and she loves swimming lessons. She’s not as afraid as Maddie is of the water but she likes to keep her face dry when possible.
Jaycie is growing so fast. She’s crawling all over the place and now is pulling up to everything she can so she can stand. She usually gets tired and falls down but at least she’s trying. She’s eating three meals as day as well as snacks. She really loves Cheerios, Yogurt, and Bananas. She’s not sleeping great and not in her bed very often. She was doing well and then once Amy had Camden and she slept in my room for 6 weeks now it’s really hard to get her back into her own crib. She’s been teething for 4 months but still no teeth yet; but it’s not for lack of trying. She likes to talk and screams things like “BaBa and Yaya” all the time. She’s a super easy going baby and usually will let people hold her. Everyone loves her and is constantly commenting on how beautiful she is. Of course we think so too. We are going to start trying to sleep train her however I can’t let her cry so we will see how well this works.
Amber is currently spending most of my days raising children. I’m really enjoying my book club and I’m thinking about getting a gym pass so I can start to work off all this baby weight. For some reason I just can’t figure out how to diet and nurse a baby at the same time. Go figure. So now that Jaycie is nursing less I should be able to have a little more time for myself. I just finished reading the Book of Mormon again and I love how much I get out of it every time I read it. I teach the 4 year olds in primary and I love those little kids. I have a very well behaved class and love teaching them and helping them feel Heavenly Father’s love for them. General Conference just came and went and I was extremely uplifted and inspired. I really felt that the sacrifices I’m making in my life are what’s right for me now and I have a desire to be a better more patient mother and to make my marriage stronger. I'm looking forward to summer and hopefully some play dates and time outside with the girls. We're planning to get a zoo pass and one to the aquarium too, so it should be a fun summer.
Madisyn is becoming quite the sleeper. Lately she refuses to get out of bed until at least 9 a.m. which is rough considering we have been doing swimming lessons which start at 9:40. She’s a little timid in the water and doesn’t like to jump in or get her face wet so I’m sure that she’ll be on the first level of swimming lessons forever. She loved purple and has to wear a purple shirt everyday. She has the most beautiful long hair but wants a pony tail everyday because she has to wear “mommy’s big one” hair elastic. She’s really into eating goldfish and yogurt lately and she likes to carry Jaycie around even though she knows she’s not suppose to. She loves doing puzzles and coloring.
Katie is 3 going on 13. She’s been a struggle this month. She is constantly telling me that I’m not nice, that we aren’t friends anymore, that she’s going to Grandma Karen’s and then to Disneyland. She loves Cinderella but has been watching Brave and wearing Merida lately. She wants pancakes for breakfast every morning and thinks that Dr. Pepper is the only beverage out there (she hardly ever gets it; but that doesn’t keep her from asking). She’s getting really good at matching her clothes and making her bed. She recognizes the letters A,B,C,G,J,K, &M. She is excited for preschool and she loves swimming lessons. She’s not as afraid as Maddie is of the water but she likes to keep her face dry when possible.
Jaycie is growing so fast. She’s crawling all over the place and now is pulling up to everything she can so she can stand. She usually gets tired and falls down but at least she’s trying. She’s eating three meals as day as well as snacks. She really loves Cheerios, Yogurt, and Bananas. She’s not sleeping great and not in her bed very often. She was doing well and then once Amy had Camden and she slept in my room for 6 weeks now it’s really hard to get her back into her own crib. She’s been teething for 4 months but still no teeth yet; but it’s not for lack of trying. She likes to talk and screams things like “BaBa and Yaya” all the time. She’s a super easy going baby and usually will let people hold her. Everyone loves her and is constantly commenting on how beautiful she is. Of course we think so too. We are going to start trying to sleep train her however I can’t let her cry so we will see how well this works.
My Marriage to Handsome
First off let me start off by saying "I am crazy about my Hubby".
When I say 'Crazy' I mean literally head over heals, can't live without, totally completes me, love of my life, my best friend, still gives me butterflies, in love crazy.
I believe that we have a great marriage.
This weekend during conference Elder L. Whitney Clayton gave this talk on strong marriages.
It gave me a lot to think about and both Handsome and I have an increased determination to make our marriage the kind he is talking about.
Just thought you'd like to know...
Day 1 is going well!
When I say 'Crazy' I mean literally head over heals, can't live without, totally completes me, love of my life, my best friend, still gives me butterflies, in love crazy.
I believe that we have a great marriage.
This weekend during conference Elder L. Whitney Clayton gave this talk on strong marriages.
It gave me a lot to think about and both Handsome and I have an increased determination to make our marriage the kind he is talking about.
Just thought you'd like to know...
Day 1 is going well!
Cavities, who cares?
My girls have gotten into this bad habit that right before they go to bed and after they brush their teeth they ask for cereal.
I try and say "No" but how can you turn down your child when they insist that they are "so hungry"? I can't.
Well last night the girls were being little pains and we did the baths, meds, teeth brushing, story, and prayer. They were on their way to bed (at 9:30 I might add, victory!) and Katie says, "Mom, I'm so hungry I want cereal." I proceed to tell her that if she continues to eat after brushing her teeth that she will get cavities.
Of course my 3 year olds have no idea what cavities are so I tell Josh to pull up a picture of the most awful cavitie he can find and show them a picture.
Maddie come to me after and tells me that she doesn't want to get cavities because cavities are gross and they hurt.
I say "Yep, so that's why we can't eat cereal after brushing our teeth for bed".
Maddie, in all seriousness replys "I won't eat cereal anymore after brushing my teeth, I'll have Ice Cream."
I think we missed the boat on that one.
I try and say "No" but how can you turn down your child when they insist that they are "so hungry"? I can't.
Well last night the girls were being little pains and we did the baths, meds, teeth brushing, story, and prayer. They were on their way to bed (at 9:30 I might add, victory!) and Katie says, "Mom, I'm so hungry I want cereal." I proceed to tell her that if she continues to eat after brushing her teeth that she will get cavities.
Of course my 3 year olds have no idea what cavities are so I tell Josh to pull up a picture of the most awful cavitie he can find and show them a picture.
Maddie come to me after and tells me that she doesn't want to get cavities because cavities are gross and they hurt.
I say "Yep, so that's why we can't eat cereal after brushing our teeth for bed".
Maddie, in all seriousness replys "I won't eat cereal anymore after brushing my teeth, I'll have Ice Cream."
I think we missed the boat on that one.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Confession!
For as long as I have been married I've had "mom" friends. Some of my Mom friends used to talk about needing breaks from their kids and time for themselves and girl weekends; I never understood this. I was like why the heck do you need a break, you asked for those babies?
Then I had my own kids.
When my twins were babies I worked part time, then I would come home and do the Mom thing and be fine. I did this until right before their 2nd birthday when I found out I was pregnant with my third child. So I took the plunge and quit my job.
I was now a stay-at-home mom. It was great. Plenty of time to clean and cook and teach them their ABC's, or so I thought. I now know that staying at home is much more work than I ever imagined. It's constant cleaning, cooking, changing, wiping of all things gross, scheduling, refereeing, teaching, loving only to do it all over again the following day. I feel like I hardly ever get anything achomplished because once I finish in one room it becomes a disaster in 6 seconds flat.
Handsome is wonderful, he never says anything about the house being messy or dinner not being done. For the most part I think I handle the running of the house well. Usually my house is at least presentable enough to have me not be completely mortified if people come over, and ususally I make dinner although I allow for one night out per week, and usually no one has to wear dirty clothes because normally I wash,dry, and fold the laundry.
Normally!
But I've found that I've become so absorbed in taking care of the kids and the house and the food that I've forgot about ME! I feel like if I take my one night a month off for book club I'm neglecting my family and being selfish.
I understand now. I'm putting it out there. I AM going to attempt to be SELFISH. (that feels awful)
I need to rethink my priorities and put myself closer to the top. I think I get grumpier and yell more when I feel tired, overweight, lacking in spiritual upliftment, like my friendships are slacking, putting aside things I love to do like reading and scrapbooking then not being able to remember the last time I did those things. I'm hopeful that if I put spiritual and physical wellbeing as a priority it will make me a better wife and mother.
Here goes nothing!
Then I had my own kids.
When my twins were babies I worked part time, then I would come home and do the Mom thing and be fine. I did this until right before their 2nd birthday when I found out I was pregnant with my third child. So I took the plunge and quit my job.
I was now a stay-at-home mom. It was great. Plenty of time to clean and cook and teach them their ABC's, or so I thought. I now know that staying at home is much more work than I ever imagined. It's constant cleaning, cooking, changing, wiping of all things gross, scheduling, refereeing, teaching, loving only to do it all over again the following day. I feel like I hardly ever get anything achomplished because once I finish in one room it becomes a disaster in 6 seconds flat.
Handsome is wonderful, he never says anything about the house being messy or dinner not being done. For the most part I think I handle the running of the house well. Usually my house is at least presentable enough to have me not be completely mortified if people come over, and ususally I make dinner although I allow for one night out per week, and usually no one has to wear dirty clothes because normally I wash,dry, and fold the laundry.
Normally!
But I've found that I've become so absorbed in taking care of the kids and the house and the food that I've forgot about ME! I feel like if I take my one night a month off for book club I'm neglecting my family and being selfish.
I understand now. I'm putting it out there. I AM going to attempt to be SELFISH. (that feels awful)
I need to rethink my priorities and put myself closer to the top. I think I get grumpier and yell more when I feel tired, overweight, lacking in spiritual upliftment, like my friendships are slacking, putting aside things I love to do like reading and scrapbooking then not being able to remember the last time I did those things. I'm hopeful that if I put spiritual and physical wellbeing as a priority it will make me a better wife and mother.
Here goes nothing!
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