Opinions

So I've been struggling for the last three weeks. I had someone openly question my ability to handle my own children. Now this person means absolutely nothing to me, she's niave on the subject of raising kids herself, and her opinion shouldn't matter to me; but for some reason I can't stop thinking about it. It's been bothering me so much that I've had a hard time being around some of my friends. It's not like I did anything horrible to her; she just felt the need to be rude in that sweet way that you aren't quite sure how to respond. It's been a trial for me and caused me a lot of stress. I have had some wonderful family members tell me that I need to let it go and try to help me through it with comments that make me feel like I could be "SuperMom"; but in the back of my head I hear that comment and it makes me wonder where in the world she would have come up with something like that. I guess I'm just going to have to learn to deal with it but it's hard not to let people's opinions bother me.
*sigh*

...and so it begins

Today I am officially 10 weeks. It may not seem like a milestone however my babies are now into their double digits and that makes me excited. With the exception of being exhausted all the time I honestly hadn't been that sick. So I was thinking to myself, "YES, you got off scott free with the sickness crap." Apparently I spoke to soon. I don't know how some of you function with morning sickness. I am completely useless. I woke up yesterday totoally fine, however upon arriving to work, one of my co-workers was having popcorn for breakfast (no she's not expecting) and from that point on I was a gonner. For the next three hours it was like a wrestling match with my 'up-chuck' reflex. About 11:00 I could take no more and resigned myself to taking the rest of the day as a sick day. I felt like a whimp. I came home and slept from 1:00 until 5:00, it was fabulous. Needless to say, Popcorn smell is now banned from my office if they expect me to continue working at my desk as opposed to on the toilet. (That could be interesting)

On a much sadder note, I am also surrounded by sick people. I was informed just recently that there are a few people in Josh's family as well as a couple at work who have or have been in contact with someone who has the H1N1 Virus. (I don't know why they call it that, Swine Flu is so much more fun to say.) So hopefully everyone will make a full recovery and we can get back to life as we know it. I'm praying I don't contract anything foreign because there is a limited number of medications to be taken at this point in my pregnacy.

My Mom has become demesticated recently. She made me the cutest quilts ever for my babies. She made a pink and brown poka-dot one for a girl and, of course, a camo one for a boy. I'm not sure that they are a boy and a girl, however I am hoping for it. I really feel like at least one of them is a boy and if they both turn out to be girls I will apologize later.

I recently learned that stores give you a discount for having twins, which just goes to show that they feel sorry for the expense you will be going to. I have officially resigned myself to the fact that we are now poor. I never really thought of myself as poor (obviously never rich either, just alright) but I am now. We are trying to work out a way for me to quit working because it's wrong for me to expect people to watch my kids for free everyday, I would just feel to bad. So we have come up with The Plan. I would hate to bore you with the details but basically it includes every dime I make going towards paying off our truck, if I can do that then I can quit. So here's to my attempt at being extremely disciplined with my spending and hoping I have a lot of great shower gifts or my babies may be naked. (Not really)

Feeling Lazy

So I've been feeling really bad lately. I have become "the wife" I never wanted to be. Poor Josh, he just puts up with it without saying anything, he's so wonderful. I realize that being pregnant takes it's toll on your body, but I must say I didn't expect it to be like this. I never cook anymore (I just tell Josh what to do), my house is a disaster because I have no motivation to clean it, and I only do laundry when I'm out of underwear. If Grandma could see me now she'd have me beat! Lucky for me my family has taken pitty on us and I've had multiple dinner invitations which has kept us from living off of fast food and ramen noodles. I've heard it's suppose to get easier after week 12 so I suppose we'll be living in a mess until then.

It's A Miracle!

We are pregnant and it's twins! We are due around January 15th (they will most likely come early) and they are fraternal. Everything is great and we are measuring at about 7 1/2 weeks. I am excited and terrified at the same time and Josh feels like he's been punched in the gut.

The Twins together. Baby B is underneath Baby A so you can't see it as well right here but it is there.

Baby A

Baby B is actually a little bit bigger although the sack is smaller. We heard both of their heartbeats today and it sounded like a little boat. I guess this is what you get when you wait for something for so long, you get more than you ask for. We feel so blessed and are hoping that everything will go well and we'll have no complications. Pray for us!